Thursday, January 22, 2009

Ups and Downs and Ups

Wow. I have had a full week. I'm leaving in the morning to fly to Seattle, WA to see my grandmother who has been in the hospital since Monday. She has been battling so many things from renal failure to pneumonia to heart attacks to sepsis in the blood to through the roof potassium levels which basically disconnected her ability to communicate, among other things.
I thought that she was going to die tonight. After a lot of prayers from countless people, I got a call late tonight from my mom that the doctors said that 'her death is not imminent'. What a relief. My parents are driving through an Idahoan snowstorm right now as I type trying to get to Washington, and all I could do was pray that they got there in time to say good-bye without the hope that I would arrived tomorrow before her passing. So now, again, I have some hope of her recovery. I desperately want her to get well again. I know that all will be well, whether or not she does, but there's so much more I want to talk with her about, to learn about from her, and just want more special moments with her. (how selfish of me. I treasure the moments and memories I have of the times spent with her. In fact I have been remembering all kinds of wonderful times that we've spent together. I can't remember every word spoken, but the kindness and the love are there. And that is what is important to me. I've always been more emotionally affected so my memories are less detailed, I think.)
I am so thankful for my church and my guitar students for their flexibility and support. and I am so thankful that I no longer work for wal-mart, because I would not be flying to see Nana in the morning if I still was there. God is faithful, all-powerful, Jehovah Jireh, my provider in all things, at all times, and every time.

2 comments:

Steph said...

Jean - I hope the trip goes well for you. I understand all of your sentiments as I feel the same about my grandma

emily said...

me too. I treasure the time now with my grandparents so much more than I did when I was younger. And I regret that my grandpa died when I was just getting to know him as an adult. You take it for granted that they are going to live forever when you are a kid. Adulthood brings all sorts of realities crashing down, and it puts a lot of things in perspective. Praying for you and your family, Jean.