Down and overwhelmed with stuff

I think that I can't write what I'm feeling right now. It's a mix of happy and depressed and tired and bewildered and dread. Who has an adjective for that! I have to wake early to be at an orthodontist appointment tomorrow and I really don't want to have my mouth hurting me for a week, this week. Oh well. I'm  such a whiner tonight. It boils down to my disappointment at not being able to talk to a close friend tonight who I've been wanting to talk with for months, had a set time to talk and because some people weren't on time to pick up kids I wasn't able to talk. So the conversation is postponed yet again. I'm sure that there's a reason for it all, but I'm pretty disappointed. I really want a hug. I wish I could retreat somewhere where there are people that I trust and can relax with. O sweet fellowship that I desperately long for.

The funeral service is set for Wednesday morning and I'll probably be singing or playing guitar or something for it. I just hope that I don't lose it, cause I know that the people I'm close to that will be there will be crying a lot. 

There. Hopefully I'll have a funny blog tomorrow. I'm going to read some Psalms and put myself to bed.